I don’t know what’s been in the air lately, but everything is annoying me and sending me into a rage. I can’t even plan my own freaking birthday without breaking down and feel like the world is collapsing on me. it’s overly stressful and I feel like it shouldn’t be? but years on end I’ve never been able to enjoy my birthday. i just wanted this one to be one that wasn’t shit, but maybe im thinking too far into it? my birthday is next weekend btw, so I still have time to make it not shit, but the weeks leading up to it ALWAYS MATTER, I don’t care what anyone says, it matters.
but really, how do I control my emotions and control myself from having a mental breakdown from the smallest things?? me personally, I do try to talk myself down and hype myself up, sometimes jump around and dance if I’m alone. does it work? I don’t know, it seems to do- but somehow the cycle repeats? I go to the gym but that doesn’t help, I just go because I have inner thoughts about myself (you’re perfect btw)- but people say “iT hElPs mEnTaL hEaLtH” spare me. maybe its true? maybe it works? maybe I haven’t gone long enough to know and this is just my mental breakdown speaking- ill take the L for now.
so question for whoever is reading, what do you do when you’re spiraling with emotions? go to the gym? dance around? jump?
Grace Vs Her Thoughts 